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and then it was over

October, you were a whirlwind; blowing in, spinning me ‘round a few times, and leaving so much behind.You stirred up so much emotion in me: From joy that caused me to get up and dance, to sorrow that had me lying on the floor sobbing.You were such a mirror for me.
You made me want to get back in touch with my therapist, that’s for sure.THE PAST was definitely your theme.  So many situations in recent weeks have made me ask, “Why now?”The answer I’ve settled on is “It was time”.
I’ve said it before, so forgive me if I bore you by saying it again, but I believe the Universe gives us exactlywhat we need exactly when we need it.Maybe I am just now at a point where I can recognize the events of the past few weeks for what they are--opportunities to further my growth and understanding of myself.If things had happened at any other time, would I have been ready to learn, or even see these events how I am seeing them now?I don’t believe so.
Also, there’s the little matter of my art.The 11 canvase…

reaching out & looking in

It's one of my favorite kinds of days.  home alone, free to wander, putter around, be lazy, blast linkin park as loud as my speakers can go.  To work on my art, take frequent breaks to snack, to cry, to scream, to ponder life. 

This is my favorite place to escape to, right in my own backyard.  October is my favorite month and though I am frantically working to prepare for the show I've vowed to slow down from time to time to enjoy this amazing time of year.  I took out a snack, and coffee in my favorite mug, and spent time with nature, the universe, myself.

I thought about this week, and how so very much can happen in such a short time.  I reached out to a very dear soul earlier this week and asked for her help in getting ready for the show.  It's not easy for me to ask for help, so doing so was scary.  But she was so generous and heartfelt in her reply, of course she would help and be so very happy to do so.  That meant the world to me.  Then later in the week two other …

Dear Deb;

I wish I could talk with you and hear all the stories of your latest adventure. Gawd, how I miss you! It’s been a tough week and I have wished a thousand times that I could come running to you and hear your words of wisdom and let you tell me that everything will be ok. You were so very strong, right up to the end, and I am healthy and fine and not half as strong as you were. I guess you heard what I said at your memorial, and it was so true.

Speaking of the memorial--excuse me, celebration--were you happy with it? I know you wont be surprised to hear how nervous I was about it, but it could not have turned out better. Cyana did a wonderful job as the MC. And everyone there spoke, and it was such a special time of sharing our stories about you. And I know you loved the butterflies! Though I was the one who handed them out for the release, it was Nancy’s idea to get them. It was perfection. I ended up bonding with one of Dan’s coworkers because we admired each other’s hair!

Speaking …

and the winner is...

Caryl of Carylsrealm!  She has been notified via email and I will get the necklace out to her asap.  I would like to thank each one who visited and entered my giveaway, and also Lisa for organizing this wonderful event for us all to enjoy. 


My how time flies.  Tomorrow I can say I had surgery a week ago.  It went well, and though I could have been outpatient, I had a lot of pain in my shoulders so I decided to stay overnight and take advantage of the pain meds getting shot directly into my bloodstream.  :)  It hasn't been an easy week, physically or emotionally.  I am on a liquid diet until 2/15, and I miss food!  Then there have been some other physical discomforts, but all in all I am doing great, and am actually going back to work tomorrow.  I am really looking forward to getting back into a normal routine. 
I leave for Vegas in two weeks, to the first ever Art & Soul retreat there.  Art & Soul has a theme every year, and this year it's Art & Soul in Wonderland, hence the striped legwarmers.  I have been wearing them around the house this week to motivate me and also to keep me warm....I don't think I've been truly warm all week!  I also have plans to make a Mad Hatter hat, ala Johnny oh-how…

embracing change

Tomorrow morning I check in at a local hospital to have lap band surgery.  I have been working toward this day since August when I took the first step and attended a seminar about the different options in weight loss surgery.

It's been a very emotional journey, and that's one reason I haven't written about it here...I just wasn't ready to share.  The other reason is I wanted to make sure it was really going to happen; that none of the tests I had to undergo uncovered anything to prevent me from getting it, or the insurance was really going to pay (it is!).  I've had days of crying, and I even cried the entire two hours of my weight loss training class.  But though it was an emotional decision, and the road to the thinner me isn't going to be easy, I am 100% committed to this.  I am borderline diabetic, and I don't want to cross that line.  I want to lessen the load my bones are carrying around in hopes that my back pain becomes more manageable.  I want to …

“Well, you don't know what we can find….

Why don't you come with me little girl, on a magic carpet ride?”

Please come along to discover new places, new things, and new friends as we climb onto that magic carpet that flies by once a year to whisk us off on a world-wide blog tour! This is my second time participating in this event and I absolutely love the reasons behind it, the camaraderie, the discovering of new blogs…oh, and yes, the giveaways too!! I would like to thank Lisa, the creator of this event, so very much for her brilliant heart and mind, and also for the time it takes to coordinate/manage/pull-off such a thing. Click on the picture above to go to her blog and read all about the origins of OWOH and to see a list of the participating blogs…today is the first day and already the list is staggering!!

Ok, on to the giveaway! I have been in full-on Valentine’s mode getting the local shops stocked with my jewelry, so the piece up for grabs is along those same lines but is neutral enough that it can be worn anytime…